Saturday 30 April 2011

Perfect Day

Woke up this morning at my own pace, and greeted it with a smile.
It was not raining (finally!). Poured my coffee, and sat outside with the man as I gradually 'woke up' for real. Put my gym clothes on, and ran!
I ran to the gym and back, which is 10K without stopping (except for lights), and it was wonderful. By the end, my legs were lead - but my lungs were fine, and I felt great. What a perfect way to start the day:)

The I headed to 'Saltscapes' at Exhibition Park, which is a travel/tourism exhibition of sorts. Lots of info on summer events happening throughout Eastern Canada during the summer, and lots of draws for so much good stuff! I hope I win something, mind you there were probably 10000 people there or more throughout the day. I bought some organic flax flour from a local merchandiser - which will be exciting to try out. Maybe in the dukan bread. I also bought maple syrup, but more for summer guests (not for me~!!).

Went to dinner and had 'hamburger' with salad and balsamic vinegar on the side.

Didn't eat much today, but nibbled on eggs and carrots. The day just flew by, and now I'm exhausted!!! Off to bed for me! Cross your fingers I win something!

Friday 29 April 2011

Weigh in Day


Weigh In Day At Work



Don't I look happy! I actually am. It's not the most flattering outfit - I did have some hot high boots on, but not for the scale part! I know I'm not that overweight, but if I was in a bikini for this picture, I wouldn't be posting it, that's for sure!!

Today's Meals:
Breakfast: Scrambled eggs with turkey bacon
Snack: Oatbran, wheat bran, and small amount of flax
Lunch: vegetable soup with chicken
Dinner: Turkey sausages w/ turnip
Exercise: 
10Km walk


And now I'm going to help a friend move...so some heavy lifting!!

Thursday 28 April 2011

And the Prize for gaining the most weight over Easter goes to....

Guess!
So, we all know that I took quite the hiatus from Dukan for about 2-3 weeks, while sick, and then over Easter break....so this is no surprise to me at all. In fact, over the last 3 weeks, I've been mores slack with my exercise (until last Friday, when I restarted) than I have been in about 7 or 8 years. I was eating crap, and not just 'non-dukan' food, but plain out crap. So it's no surpirse. It's no surprise. I do not feel guilty. I do not feel ashamed. This is life sometimes, and what is most important (so long as I don't live my entire life losing and gaining the same 10 pounds) - is that I get back on that horse. Which I have.

I weighed in at the official start to the biggest loser challenge today. I did drink a bunch of water right before weighing in (because come on! it is a contest - who didn't do that???). My waist measurements were 28.5inches (what were they at the end of the last challenge??), and I weighed in at 159lbs. This is actually 1 pound heavier than when I started Dukan. Not so good. I will weigh in once a week, on Thursdays - for all of those who want to hear about my circus life on the scale.

Today's Meals:
Breakfast: oatbran porridge w/ yogurt
Lunch: Salad w/ cucumbers and turkey and ground beef
Snack: tuna 'salad' (salt and pepper and cream cheese)
Dinner: My hubby is currently making 'Dak Kalbi' which as I'm sure I've mentioned is a Korean dish, made with spicy pepper paste, cabbage and chicken (and rice, but I won't eat that part). It has 1tbsp of honey in the entire recipe, but I'll allow that:)

Exercise: Walked about 30 minutes.
Going to the gym, think I'll do a FitMix class!

Wednesday 27 April 2011

Could Kill for some Chocolate!

Today has been perfect, as far as food goes. I've been 'spot on' Dukan. However, I cannot speak for the demons in my head craving chocolate. I don't understand them. I mean, I've eaten enough - so what's the deal???

Meal Log:
Breakfast: Scoop of Protein, 1.5tbsp oat bran, yogurt
Lunch: Turkey and some Ground beef, with cucumbers
Snack: yogurt
Dinner (not yet): eggs and turkey
Calories<1400 no doubt!

Exercise: non-existent as of yet, but will hit the gym shortly! Promise. Going to try and do a run!

Later on;
Did 5Km run at the gym. Just over 30 minutes. Not bad, not bad:)

Tuesday 26 April 2011

Re-Attack

As I mentioned the other day, I would like to start my 'sorta' Dukan plan. I did not weigh myself today (or lately!) as I'm terrified of what the scales will have to say. I've overindulged lately. Or I've indulged, to say the least. So there is no 'start point'. We shall see. It's not about how much I lose, it's about getting to a bodysize/frame of mind that I am comfortable with. That may take months, which I'm alright with. And who knows where the path may lead. That being said, I will be rejoining the latest 'biggest loser' contest at work - primarily because I find it 'keeps me in check' every week. There is something about gaining in front of someone that I do not like. I've been doing the challenge since last summer (when I first weighed in at 169lbs - I came in second, and was down to 150 over 12 weeks). I know that if I keep doing the challenge, I will never allow my weight to rise to that level again. If I'm not losing, it at least helps me maintain within 5 lbs.

So today marked Day One - a re-attack if you will. I've decided to do two days straight protein (although I may have some green veggies if I feel the need). I'm focusing on ditching the real carbs, and upping the water.

Meal Log for Today:
Breakfast (within 30 minutes of waking!!): Protein/coffee shake (milk, coffee, protein)
Later Breakfast: Oatbran (1.5 tbsp) and yogurt
Lunch: turkey and cottage cheese
Snack: Yogurt times two
Dinner: 2 eggs w/ turkey. Possible side salad (just spinach and cucumbers)
Drinks: 2.5 coffees. 1 tea. 8 glasses of water. May have 1 detox tea later.
Calories < 1400cals

Exercise: 
Not a lot today,
5Km walk
Run 1 mile (on lunch)
30 squats (just for the fun of it)
I couldn't make it to the gym after work due to time constraints, and then didn't want to go back out.

Again, my 'plan' is to do two days of attack, and then go to Protein/veggie days. I will have one or two pure protein days a week (tuesdays and wednesdays). Possibly, I will have a 'free meal' with wine on the weekends. This will not be a huge chinese buffet or anything like that. But it may incorporate a slightly higher carb day, followed by or following a great, solid workout of both weightlifting and a run. I also have some grapes and strawberries in the fridge that will not go to waste, but I will wait until the weekend.

I really need to focus on getting the H20 into me, as I've been slack on that as well.

I'll post my weight on Thursday, unless I don't go to the bathroom till then!!!

Monday 25 April 2011

Short Post, Short Day!!!

Warning: boring post!

Today flew by! Walked with the doggy and boy, and then continued on to the gym (5Km walk - with a bit of running, but had a big backpack on my shoulders, so running was tough). Then I did 40 minutes lower body workout. Killed my legs, with lots of squats, lunges, etc - and will no doubt feel it tomorrow. I increased my weights (which were down from when I was sick) and felt great, as though I could lift a lot with ease.

After that, hit the mall and 'Le Costco'. Stocked up on protein and salad for the week. Still a whole turkey in the fridge. I think my mother thought I was crazy cooking a 20lbs turkey for two people, but we'll get it into us! I have to make the turkey soup too - but it takes so long, that I'm scared. I put the carcus (I hate that word, makes we want to be a vegetarian) in the freezer, so hopefully it will be okay.

Then I went out to dinner, came home, took a bath - will make dinner for my hubby and go to bed!!

Very, very boring post. I apologize, but I like to post for my own sake of keeping a journal. Making it a habit! It's one thing I haven't had a problem staying on track with! That, and reading everyone else's'!

Sunday 24 April 2011

Happy Easter Dukaners!

Happy Easter everyone! I hope you had a beautiful Easter Sunday, and that the Easter bunny visited each and every one of you! He sure hit my place! I had a wonderful scavenger hunt orchestrated by my handsome Peter Rabbit Hubby. Little cryptic clues in hidden locations to lead me to the next chocolate easter egg. I will have what I like today, and then hide them, or ration them, or something. Haven't quite figured that out yet!

Still really thinking about what step to take next. While I love what Dukan stands for, and where it leads, and the results of others I've been watching - I'm worried that the 'strictness' of any it, or any 'diet' really may be setting me up for failure. I have a long time pattern of watching what I eat, losing weight, then losing interest. I think when I'm 'dieting', my mind feels deprived, whether or not my body actual is. And then I snowball in the other direction. I'm sure this is a pattern many people can relate to. I really need to focus on my relationship with food. I want to eat to live, not live to eat - but it's a hard thing to get my heart and brain set on. I LOVE food. I love all kinds of food. I like healthy food, I like unhealthy food. And saying I 'can't have' any certain things, makes me want them more in the long run. I know that I function better without carbs - but the not having them makes me want them more. More than I did before restricting them.

That being said, I like the idea of ridding my life of sugar in general, at least to the point where I can get rid of my 'addiction' if you want to call it that. But I may need to incorporate the healthy sugars, such as sweet potato, squash, and other veggies on a daily basis. So for now, while I haven't made any promises to myself as to when I'm going to start - I think I will do another Attack Phase, 3 days, and then go on to Cruise, with 6 days veggies, and 1 day Protein. I also think that I may incorporate some sort of 'free meal' per week.

Now I can already see a lot of Dukaners out there thinking 'Well, that won't work. That's not the way the Dukan plan was set out to work, scientifically.' However, if you look at what I just said, it looks an awful lot like South Beach, Body for life, the 4-Hour Body, and many other plans - that do have track records of working.

The weight loss may be slower than others have shown, but I'm Okay with that. And I like the idea of having an attack phase (just protein), a cruise phase (with protein and veg, and free meal), and consolidation (where once I reach my goal weight/size/whatever - I can start to slowly incorporate things like healthy bread, quinoa, and such).

It may work. It may not. I may do it. I may not. I hate making promises, and then screwing it up. So I'm not going to do that. The shame/guilt of that just makes it harder for me to persevere.

So anyhow, I've got the turkey in the oven, with sweet potato, and green beans all set to go. I will enjoy our beautiful Easter dinner.

I hope you all had a gorgeous Easter meal, with treats or without.

Saturday 23 April 2011

Back in the Run of Things

Running that is!

I ran 8Km today outside. I felt like the wind. I got my breath back, and it felt like riding a bike. I was so worried that I would have to start over, run, walk, run, etc. But I just felt wonderful. In fact, I felt better running than I did before I got sick. It could be what some people refer to as beginner's luck. But I'm happy with it.

My hubby, doggy and I walked down to the hydrostone market, and I kept going from there. Maybe it was the nice company on the way. Who knows. But it was perfect. I really needed it.

Tonight I made a Dukan cheesecake, to have tonight and tomorrow. Getting ready for Easter (cause you know, I really need cheesecake, if I'm getting chocolate easter eggs tomorrow!).

Hope everyone is already for the bunny to come tonight. Enjoy!!

Friday 22 April 2011

Good Friday was Not so Good

While I got to sleep in, I was awoken with some disappointing news from home. Today was somewhat of a stressful day, so I don't have too much to write. My hubby took good care of me though and showered me with love - so I'm doing alright, thanks to him. He took me to the coast, where we just sat and talked for hours. Then we went out to dinner, and our plan is to just take it easy tonight.

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday weekend, and enjoy your treats if you plan to, and if not - have a wonderful doing otherwise!! And be proud! I will of course be in touch no doubt. Just not for the rest of today. And no, I didn't make it to the gym. That's the only thing I feel a bit guilty about:(

Woman, Food and God

Had a beautiful day today. Woke up on my own terms, drove down to work to drop off my baked goods (sugar cookies, and oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookies - which I didn't take a picture of, as obviously - it's not for us Dukaners). There were so many luscious treats there, all of which I avoided (but let's be honest, I didn't have any cash on me, or I would have been in heaps of trouble).

From there I headed to the library, and checked out two books.
1) Women, Food, and God - by Geneen Roth
2) Crave - by Cynthia Bulk

For a long time, I have avoided buying/reading Women, Food, and God - primarily because of the word God in the title. I'm not a religious person by nature, and didn't think I would be able to relate someone relating God to food. However, so many people have told me that it isn't about that - so I thought I would give it a chance. And I have to say, I'm half way through, and it's really good. I hope I can take a lot from it, and perhaps write some sort of synopsis/review for the blog. I can relate to a lot of what she has to say so far - as I'm sure we all could. Have any of you read it?


After the library, I went to the gym. My chest is not completely back to normal, so no running as of yet. I did 45 minutes on the bike, while reading. I always find this difficult, as my hands are all sweaty, my back starts hurting, I drop the book. But the book is captivating, so it made the time fly.

Did a bit of grocery shopping. Then hit the mall with a friend. I'm broke, so all I bought was a Mother's Day card for my mama. Practically started bawling while I was reading them all. Truly, my mother is the most amazing person - and I hope she realizes that. For all of you mothers out there, I think you have the most important job in the world - and it ain't an easy one!!


Anywho, that's it for now.


We're going to watch Paranormal Activity!!! Scary!!!

Wednesday 20 April 2011

Sugar: The Bitter Truth

This is a Youtube Must see. It's a long one, but if you have 1.5hrs, definitely worth a watch!!

Sugar: The Bitter Truth

If you'd prefer to read something about it, here's a link to a recent New York Times article

Is Sugar Toxic?

This really gives my head a shake. I'm huge on conspiracies, and find them very intriguing. This one really hits a button with me though. Obviously, it is not new to me, but I've never seen a better speaker on the subject than Robert Lustig. I think in the long run, eliminating the 'bad sugar' is my goal with Dukan. I'm not opposed to eating fruit in the long term, or carb that is truly nutritious, high in fibre, and won't hurt me. I wish I could just go immediately to that. I think that Dr. Lustig, while he doesn't necessarily talk about the solution to the addiction to sugar (other than - just stop consuming it!), he does really focus on the addiction side of things. He's definitely crazy against soda! I gave up regular soda a long time ago, so that's good. It's hard to believe there are still people out there that drink ridiculous amounts of it daily. I recently met a woman who drank 4 litres of it a day!! And she was a nurse! I'm not sure if I even get in 4 litres of liquid!! Let alone, coke! I'd love to hear Dr. Lustig's views on diet soda, aspartame, and other artificial sugars.

Tuesday 19 April 2011

6 DAYS OFF!!!

Tonight is my last shift, and then I'm off until next Tuesday, for Easter break! My hubby came in the house with a secret bag of something related to Easter. Honestly, I'd probably kill him if it weren't Easter treats - so you can bet I will be allowing myself to induldge (slightly) in that regard. That being said, I'm planning on cooking a big turkey, some squash, some potatoes (for him) and some green beans, and possibly some sort of Dukan dessert. I've been doing well all week - but I'm not fully back commited to the whole Dukan or Die business at the moment. I'm focused on getting back on track, at the gym, and with my diet. I'm still eating veggies everyday (which to be honest, I might do more regularly). The Dukan Book comes out tomorrow in Canada - so maybe reading it will motivate me to jump back on that wagon with all you awesome Dukan bloggers out there!

Today's Eats:Breakfast: Oatbran,wheatbran, flax porridge with whey protein (that's all so far!)
Lunch will be: spaghetti squash and canned chicken and cottage cheese
Dinner will be: green beans and canned turkey and cottage cheese
I don't have much more than that here - so snackage will be cottage cheese I'm guessing! I forgot to brng yogurt!

Today's Moves:
30 minutes upper body workout
22 minutes bike ride

I took it a bit easy today.

I'm planning on doing a run soon, see if I got my lungs back. The cough has pretty much subsided, but is lingering at night. Still drinking buckley's. And Neo Citron. It should die soon~!

Monday 18 April 2011

A 2 Litre Bottle of Coke Zero!

That is what I bought on the way to work tonight. That was my treat, a huge bottle of Coke Zero. No worries, I won't drink it all - I'll have company I'm sure!

Hit the gym first thing;
5Km walk
25 minutes Precor
15 minutes Bike

And my food for today;
Breakfast: Oatbran/wheatbran/flax porridge with egg whites
Lunch: Will be canned turkey and green beans
Snackage for the rest of the night includes; squash, yogurt, cottage cheese and COKE!

Not much to note today otherwise. Slept it away, although I did wake up exactly every two hours to pee. That's how you know I've been chugging the water and inhaling the protein!

Sunday 17 April 2011

Sunday in Bed

I got to sleep in today (as I always do when I work that evening's night shift). The rest of the day was spent in the exact same spot. So nice! We watched 'Temple Grandin', which is a great movie (for an HBO special) and I highly recommend it. We snoozed a little bit in the late afternoon, and then I got up, prepared my lunch, and went to the gym.

I did better today, and although I'm still hacking my brains out (mostly at night:(), I felt a lot better. I made it the whole hour without making anyone throw up or throw daggers my way. And perfectly, it stopped raining just as it was time for me to walk to work. I hate coming from the gym all sweaty, only to go outside and get wet. NOT GOOD FOR A COLD, I'm sure.

My co-worker (the one that's lost all the weight) showed up with an XL Timmies (which is coffee for those non-Canadians out there) with skim milk and sweetener. God love her.

Today's Eats:
Breakfast: XL timmies, oatbran/wheatbran and cottage cheese
(that's it so far, but this is what I brought in my lunch bag)
- greens (spinach, lettuce, etc) and cucumbers
- a big thing of banana/strawberry yogurt with 1 gram of sugar, and zero fat (yes dairy - I went back for now)
- cottage cheese
- left over spaghetti squash
(which was amazing, by the way! I took a snapshot of it, and will post sooner than later).
- green beans
- can of chicken

Today's Workout
30 minute Lower body workout (squats, deadlifts, lunges, etc) and some abs
30 minutes on the Precor.

Does it look like I'm back in the game? I hope so. I at least want to get my weight back down to what it was - prior to the next 'biggest loser challenge' at work. That starts next Thursday (after Easter). We're having a bake sale this Thursday, and I'm making oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookies. I know. I'm crazy. Watch me try not to eat them.

Saturday 16 April 2011

Phlegm all over the handle bars...BUT Back At It!!

Yes, you heard me right. I am back at the gym. There was a part of me yesterday that just wanted to flag it, and run the other way. Or not run, but slowly walk without losing a lung. But it had been 1 WEEK exactly since I had hit the gym (with the exception of one yoga workout on Monday). In 7 years, I don't think I've went more than a week without going to the gym. Usually, I try to go everyday, but make it 5-6 times. I knew my lungs weren't ready, but the thought crossed my mind that they may never be. I kept thinking that if I keep 'not' going, then it will be harder and harder to go back to my original level of cardio and strength.

So, needless to say, I went. On Friday, I managed to do 3 circuits of full body. I went light on the weights and, all in all, it was quite pathetic. I know that people were glaring at me as I coughed and coughed, but I did a good job of ELABORATELY cleaning each machine down afterwards. Then I did 10 minutes on the elliptical. That was what my pipes could handle. Made me want to cry. I also walked my 5k to work - so it wasn't all that bad I suppose.

Today, I dragged myself to the gym, having had a good night's sleep with the help of 1/2 a bottle of buckley's and wine. Great combo, by the way. I highly recommend it. That and 4 huge glasses of water throughout the night. I only did cardio today - 30 minutes on the bike, and 10 minutes on the elliptical. Not to bad. Then 1 hour of grocery shopping. Does that count as exercise? Not with all the samples!!

I can't NOT go to the gym. It's not good for my soul. It drives me to eat to be honest, and I'm fully aware of that. I cannot wait until my lungs clear up - 'cause watch out!! I'll be awesome.

Now going to make a spaghetti squash w/ tomato sauce! Yum.

But let me finish this NeoCitron. Maybe I should put some vodka it!!

Friday 15 April 2011

TGIF...for Realz!!

Hey all Dukaners out there! It's Friday! Start of a weekend. A time to start fresh?

A friend of mine from work just told me she's lost over 14 pounds in 6 weeks, and is now under 150lbs. So I'm incredibly happy for her/jealous. Is that awful?? I am happy for her! So hopefully this will light a fire under my butt and I will flame this baby. I'm still eating some carbs, and thinking of starting fresh soon. Possibly this Sunday? The Dukan book is released in Canada this upcoming week I believe, so that may give me a fresh outlook towards it all.

Thank you for baring with me and my neurosis! You're all wonderful. And although I'm eating carbs at the moment, know that I have not throw in the towel and will turn this bus around!

Thursday 14 April 2011

A Day Off (from work!)

I decided to take the day off today, and just stay in bed for the most part. I woke up at 4 am coughing, with a killer headache, and couldn't get back to sleep. So at 6 o'clock, I called in. I need some sleep, and am really hoping this headache goes away. I promise - once this cold is gone, I will not complain about sickness for a really long time! I feel like such a drag. I hate being sick - I get so bored!!

Anyhow, started the day with oatbran porridge and scrambled eggs. On track so far.

I'm trying to chug down liquids, but have ZERO desire for them. No fun! I just made a pot of tea though, so that should make me feel a bit better.

That's it for today!

Later that day;
You'll be happy to know that I'm making my dukan chicken fingers and squash fries!
Although it's not straight protein, it's a start! Easier to stay on plan when I'm at home!

Wednesday 13 April 2011

Blogs and Motivation

I am so happy that I discovered the blogosphere. It is so inspiring to read other people's blogs and see how well they are doing, or to see them when they are under the weather and not doing as well as they could be - as it makes me feel as though I am not alone in this world. When you are surrounded by 'real life' and climbing the walls, it is a great escape, almost therapeutic to be able to sneak off to the computer and veg out for an hour or so and catch up on how everyone is doing in there little worlds. And to think of how it brings the whole world together is amazing. I mean, the number of countries that have 'viewed' my blog really puts it into perspective. How we can all be living in such different places, but be going through some of the exact same trials and tribulations. That just amazes me! Truly, it does!

Today was I went to my Non-violent Crisis intervention and CPR sessions. It was a fun group, and the day just flew by. The session was held on the other end of town, so no walking today, and still sick. I coughed the whole time, and I think people thought I was this disgusting sicko. I kept telling them, "I swear, it can't be contagious at this point! I've been sick for a week!". I hope it goes away soon....I am missing the gym and going stir-crazy!! Tonight I just took a bath, and I'm going to hit the hay early and try to sleep it off! I've been chugging the liquid (water and tea) - and hopefully will put this thing to rest soon! I haven't had a cold in 4 years, so I guess it was due. Boo. 

Thanks for all the wonderful comments ladies! 

Tuesday 12 April 2011

I will get through this...

I made healthier choices today - albeit still not Dukan. I have a lot of thinking to do, and I know that I will get my brain straightened out - but my emotions are so crazy right now, and not even just about food. I guess it could be 'stress' that makes me fall hard. I hate to say 'stress' because I know I have it really easy compared to a lot of people out there. I hate feeling sorry for myself. But truth be known, I'm not that happy at the moment. On a second to second basis, if I'm distracted (be it through work, or friends) I am not unhappy. But a moment to myself and I feel like I've got a lot on my shoulders.

I'll wake up tomorrow, and try my best. I'm focusing on getting rid of this cough, and getting my energy back. That will be a good start. I walked 10K today. Another start. Tomorrow I have another crazy busy day at work and then hopefully things will calm down some. Hopefully.

I've been reading a lot about sugar addiction lately, and giving it up. What goes on mentally when one goes through it all. I've signed up to see this presentation by a well respected doctor  on giving up sugar. He's a psychologist who works primarily with eating disorders and diabetics. The presentation is on diabetes and how to approach eating. While I'm not diabetic in the least, or even heading that way (I hope!) - I think it will be an interesting talk on the subject, and something I may benefit from. That is not until May, but I'll keep you posted on that. I was talking about him today with a co-worker, and it turns out he works right down the hall from me, and I never knew! Small world.

Anyhow, going to have a healthy dinner, and take it easy. Another day done.

My hubby asked me to make a cheesecake this weekend, so maybe that will steer me in the right direction. Doesn't that sound odd??!!

Monday 11 April 2011

Trying to Catch up with the Wagon

There reaches a time in every 'meal plan' I've ever followed, where I lose interest. I lose motivation. I lose that crazy sense of excitement that first entangles me. I always start out thinking, "I'm so going to do amazing on this. It completely works for me."

But the truth is, that feeling dissipates.
I get bored.
I start craving bad food.
Or maybe I start eating bad food, and then craving it.
Or maybe my existential angst kicks in, and I could really just care less about losing weight.
Or maybe I get comfortable, because I'm not that overweight, and I look OK.
Or maybe something limits me from working out (like a chest cold) and I go for the 'all or nothing' approach.

This is the point I'm at now. When did it start?
The scones I made, and ate two of?
The bagel (and ice cream) I had on Saturday? (funny side story - I went to run a 5K race but couldn't because my chest hurt so much. But I did make it to the carbfest reception!)
The grill cheese sandwich ?
The Diablo Chicken Sub from Subway?
The Bran muffin this morning?

I hope I'm not triggering anyone. This is my journal, and I have to get it out. The funny thing is, the actual foods I ate, aren't all that horrible, but VERY MUCH SO not Dukan friendly. And I haven't worked out since Friday (due to cold). I ALSO haven't weighed myself since then. That would just make things worse I think. I know I need to think about where this is all coming from. I feel like I'm on the verge of a binge. Or rather, I feel like I have been bingeing, which seems ridiculous when I look at the quantity, but it's the same emotions. And I also feel like raiding the cupboards and eating any carbs I can find; which are negligible as I've 'decarbed' my entire house for the most part.

My dear, dear husband is now cooking us some healthy turkey burgers - but he sees the pain in my eyes that really just want a big slice of chocolate cake, or oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookies. Raw. He sees that crazy look on my face.

All I can say, is at least I'm owning up to it, and holding myself accountable. We'll see if I can pull through this mess. I have to organize my thoughts and figure something out. While trying to at least go easy on my choices. I'll try. I promise.

Saturday 9 April 2011

Dukan Low Carb Pizza



 Dukan Low Carb Pizza

Ingredients: 
Whole cauliflower, or small bag of frozen
1 egg, or 1/4 cup egg creations
Random spices (italian spices)
Low carb, sugar free tomato sauce (homemade would be good)
Vegetables (pepper, onion, mushrooms)
Turkey Pepperoni
3/4 cup No Fat Cottage Cheese

Boil or steam your Cauliflower. Then 'rice' in food processor or blender.
Make sure you've tried to get as much water out of it as possible.

Then, add spices to 'riced' cauliflower, and 1 egg or egg creations, and mix up. 

Spread Cauliflower mixture into casserole dish and mash down until crust like.
Bake for 20 minutes at 425 degrees. 

Pour tomato sauce on to baked 'crust' and top your pizza the way you wish.
I used green peppers, mushrooms, and turkey pepperon) (2% fat, zero carbs)


Add cottage cheese to top of pizza.
Bake your pizza for 15 minutes at 425 degrees.

And Voila! Enjoy your Low Carb Dukan Pizza!!


Todays Meals: 
Breakfast: Oat bran and Rhubarb
Lunch: Bagel ???? Say what? Long story. I'll explain later!
Dinner: Going to make some chilli (or ground chicken with spices really)

Exercise: 
Ran roughly 2 miles.
Went to 5K race, but bailed! Again, long story. 

Friday 8 April 2011

Exciting Recipe to Come soon!

Had a crazy busy day today! I just wanted to do my daily logs, and taunt you with a new recipe coming your way tomorrow! Pretty exciting stuff! It starts with P and ends with ZA. Any guesses???


Today's Meals:
Breakfast: Oatbran
Lunch: rhubarb
Dinner: P...ZA!!

Exercise Log:
3.5 mile run
and some walking

Thursday 7 April 2011

A little Productivity

Spent today cleaning the house, as I didn't feel completely recuperated. I did end up having chicken soup last night, and went to bed. I didn't feel as though I was ready to run, but struggled through it. Ran/Walked 5Km. I was supposed to run 2 miles, which I think I did - so that is all I'm asking for. My lungs were a hurtin'! I hope they are better tomorrow, as I'm supposed to run 3.50 again. I might do it inside, as I'm sure the cold didn't help me much.

Meal Log for today:
Breakfast: scrambled egg creations
Lunch: Oatbran/wheatbran/flax mix, with splash of milk
Snacks: Lots of coffee with milk
Dinner: Sausages (turkey) with some sort of veggie. Broccoli??

Exercise: 
Run 2 miles
Walk 1 mile

Wednesday 6 April 2011

Wishing

Wishing I had something exciting to tell y'all. I literally have nothing to write, and feel this huge urge to ramble on about my own existential angst, but truthfully - I'm not even in the mood to do that. I was just outside for a long time, without gloves, and I've lost feeling in my right hand. It's not enjoying the typing. If you were all here, I'd pour us a glass of red (or dukan friendly diet doctor pepper, or cream soda) and pour out my heart and soul. I'm not feeling the writing though. I've been sick in bed all day, as my cold has now turned into a cough that hurts my abdominals. I'm a whining machine. I'm just going to crawl back into bed.

Meals: Nothing
Workout: Nothing

And the negative side of me wants to show you that even after a day of zero calories (although I'm sure I'll absorb some later this evening - maybe chicken soup), I'll have still not lost weight. I'm obviously not advertising starvation here - but I'm somewhat pleased with not having an appetite. Neurotic.

Hopefully today will be better, and i'll run my little heart out, along with all this angst.

Tuesday 5 April 2011

SIck with Cold - But managed a Run

I'm pretty proud of myself today. I was sick as a dog last night, sniffling and sneezing. Went through an entire small box of kleenex. My nose is all dry and red. Went home, and drank back a Neo-citron, fell asleep for 7 hours, and I was up and felt so much better. I was still pretty stuffed up, and out of it, but I didn't feel nearly as bad as last night. So I made myself go to the gym, and continue with my training schedule. What do they say, if it's above the neck, you're good to go. Below the neck, no workout!! It wasn't a bad run at all! I was sweating much more than normal, and was somewhat winded, but in someways it was easier, because my brain in a fog - so it was painless!

And I weighed myself today, as I probably won't get to weigh in again until Monday morning. I was 154lbs. I didn't expect to lose much - due to last Friday. Even though I had a few days of mostly protein afterwards, I know that it is not how Dukan works. However, I feel thin, and feel like things are moving in the right direction. I want to be 150 by the end of April. That is my goal! I'd definitely settle for sooner!

Today's Meals:
Breakfast: Oatbran w/ cottage cheese and cinnamon
(that's all I've had so far)
Lunch: Burgers and salad
Dinner: Burgers and salad
Snack: yogurt and that's all I got! Easy to stay on track then!

Today's Workout:
3.50 mile run

Monday 4 April 2011

Quick Night Shift Post

Just got to work, and have to start!

Today's Meals:
Breakfast: Oatbran w/ cottage cheese (and small amount of wheat bran)
Lunch: Scrambled eggs mixed with burger
Dinner: Salad w/ burger
Snacks: Not sure yet, yogurt, cottage cheese and burgers in the fridge

Exercise:30 minutes upper body
No walk/run today - so sleepy and sore!

Note: Ended up eating small amount of popcorn and small piece of chocolate. I'm ridden with a bad cold, and that is no excuse, but didn't care too much at the time. Took a Neo Citron when I got home in the morning, and just died. Now up and feeling a little better, but think it will get worse as day progresses. Bummer.

Sunday 3 April 2011

Week One of Ten K Training

One week accomplished!! In exactly seven weeks from today - the Bluenose Marathon will take place. I will be (if I can come up with the money for donation/registration) partaking in the 10K leg of the journey. Last week I started an 8 week training program. I've never been very good at sticking to an exercise 'schedule' as I generally like winging it, and doing what I feel like; if I feel like running, I run. If I feel like doing weights, I do weights, etc. So, if I drop out because one day I don't feel up to it, that's alright with me (this is my disclaimer to myself). It's truly not about lack of motivation in the big picture. Just on a daily basis (haha). Anyhow - I'm going to try this out. I know I can run 10K, as I've done it before, on my own. However, I thought that since this is my first 10K race - I might as well give 'er.

Week One:
Monday: Rest
Tuesday: 2 miles
Wednesday: 3 miles
Thursday: Rest
Friday: 2 miles
Saturday: 3.25 miles

I completed it, and it was pretty easy. I switched Monday for Tuesday by accident. I'll check in again next Sunday to let you know if I stuck to it or not!

And just to let you know - thank you dear readers! I'm 2 away from my 1000 page view ever! In 6 weeks, I've gotten almost 1000 page views! You guys are awesome! I'm so glad that I started the blog thing, as I love reading everyone elses' - so it's a pleasure to be part of the community!

Today's Meals:
Breakfast: Oatbran with cottage cheese
Lunch: hamburgers (just the meat! beef and chicken)
Dinner: hamburgers again!
Snacks, or later meals (I'm on night shift again!): yogurt, salad, burgers

Exercise:
3.25 miles

PS - I made it to over 1000 readers in just 6 weeks!!!!

Saturday 2 April 2011

Sore Hip Flexors and More Snow

It's still snowing off and on today. What is this craziness? Doesn't mother nature know that it is April 2nd????? I mean, really! It's so cold out, that I'm considering getting the fire going again, and I thought we were done with that for the year.

I woke up today, back on track. I went for a 5K run, which was fantastic. However, I went shopping afterwards with a friend, and as the day progressed, my hips were just killing me! I usually run on the treadmill, but decided to run outside - and I think that is the difference. It's so much more entertaining to run outside, but the pavement!! It worked it's evil magic on me, and now my hip flexors are in a lot of pain! Bath time for sure! I wish I had some epsom salts!

Meal Log: 
Breakfast: egg creations and 1.5 tbsp oatbran
Snack: Multiple coffee and green tea. No real snackage.
Dinner: Going to make butterfly chicken w/ onion & garlic cream cheese in the middle
Dessert: Jello

Exercise: 
5K run and stretching

My hubby just called and said my bath is ready! I didn't even know he was running it!!

Friday 1 April 2011

Better Left Unsaid

I think I'll post less today, as we all know the fun I had, the calories I imbibed, and the carbs that are currently in my system. I had fun, and the fun continues. I will have fun tomorrow as well, but on a healthier eating spree!

Long conference today, but very interesting. Learned all about the latest in children's sleep research; regarding apnea, snoring, paransomnias and much, much more. I love my job sometimes!

Hit the gym afterwards for a quick 2 mile run. (and did my 5K walk this morning) Didn't get there till quite late, and now home with the hubby. Short weekend! I work Sunday night! Enjoy it while it lasts. Oh, and it's snowing outside!