Do you ever feel...

like your weight won't change, no matter what you do?

Sometimes I feel as though fate is trying to tell me something. 

I realize, I'm not perfect in my diet. But I also realize that I eat pretty well 90% of the time. And when I do indulge, it's not on cheezies, chips, chocolate bars, processed foods. 

That is rare. And still, it's only eating my 'treats' is only 10% of my life. 

On a whole, I exercise more than most people. Some of it is walking. Some of it running (not so much lately), and some of it is hard core workouts. But it is everyday. Minus, maybe one day a week (when I probably still walk!). 

My weight seems to like where it is, which is just on the high end of a healthy bmi. But I'm not happy with this size. I don't consider it too look good. I think I would look horrible in a bathing suit (not to mention my pasty white skin, which is calling for the sun like someone shut away in a cave for years and years on end). 

I'm not depressed, or even crazy today. I just feel like sighing. 

My in-laws are coming in a week's time. I want to look/feel good when they do arrive. No, I don't want to drop 10 pounds in a week, but I want to feel like I did - if you know what I mean. Right now, my gut feels heavy. 

Yesterday, I ate primarily raw. But I did have some gluten-free bread. And then for dinner, I had a low-fat chicken burger as well. Neither of these are horrible things. But why on earth do I feel so fat this morning? 

What will it take to 'feel' thin at the end of this week? A week of strict raw? A week of protein and veggies? Who knows. But I will try.

Remember the days when you'd drink a bottle of wine, and feel thin the next morning while eating eggs and bacon a the local greasy spoon? What happened to those days????